Recently not much has happened. I'm still in Shiga and I'm still in my job. Things are changing though. I'm now looking for a new job, focusing on areas away from where I am currently. I've decided that I've hit a rut. I'm stuck in a cycle of lonliness and mediocrity that is slowly destroying me. Here's my weekly cycle:
Tuesday: I go to work from 0930-1930, then I go to my Japanese lesson from 2030-2200. I arrive back at home around 2245.
Wednesday: I work from 0930-1915. After work I go home, eat dinner and watch a Japanese game show until about 2100. Afterwards I either study Japanese or play on the computer. I'll let you guess which one gets more attention.
Thursday: Again it's work from 0930-1930. It's dinner then study or computer.
Friday: Fridays are a little differet. I go to work from 1300-1900. I generally get all my crap done during the day before work so I can study and shit at night. I usually play on the computer after work though.
Saturday: 0945-2015 is work. Yes, I work 10.5 hours on Saturday it sucks, but I know people who have it worse. After work I usually head into Kyoto for drinks. I almost always say I'm gonna go home on the last train and it doesn't happen. I end up there till morning usually.
Sunday: Sundays are my rest days. I rarely do anything to strenuous because I'm usually hung over. I usually waste my day in front of the computer and eat shitty junk food cause I'm too fucked up to do anything else. I do however, rent movies quite often on Sundays which is always fun.
Monday: Monday I usually clean or study or rent movies. I basically try to use Monday as my day of productivity. I try to clean, do laundry, study, etc.
So there you have it guys. That is my weekly schedule. My lazy, unproductive, waste of time schedule. I know there are some folks out there who have it worse than me (having to work in a frozen tundra for 16 hours a day for one), but still I feel that I am wasting my life with doing what I am now. The thing is is that this rut I've fallen in is reinforced by my friends. Now, I love all my friends they're good people and all, but I feel that I am slipping away from being interested in drinkin and chasing girls and being wild. I feel that though this behavior was ok in university and shit, but now I'm an adult and I really should be moving beyond this shit. I sometimes try to stay home or drink in Kusatsu (something I haven't done in months because the one cool bar here got shut down back in June) or even go out of town. The days where I stay home I have to tell people that I'm sick or they won't leave me alone. Even if I say that I have something important to do on Sunday they don't care, they'll keep me there and that's that. One guy actually took my money until the last train left so that I couldn't go home.
Due to these feelings I have decided that I want to look for a job away from Kyoto. Away from the crazy parties and endless drinking. I want a normal, quiet, stable life. Of course I'll still go out every once and again, but only have a few drinks and then go home. And I would prefer to have the drinks over food. I guess it's more of a mature view of drinking, but that's how I've felt recently. It will be much easier for me to do this if I can pull up stakes and move someplace new.
On top of these feelings I also just feel like an adventure. I want to be somewhere where it doesn't feel so familiar. I remember a couple years back I would walk around Kyoto and not have a clue at all as to where I was. I miss that, I want that back. I've actually thought about moving to Taiwan or China to get that feeling back, but then I won't be able to acheive my goal of JLPT 1 (well at least not as easily). I think if I keep that goal in mind I'll be able to keep focused long enough to do it. Then I can hop over to someplace totally new.
Really the biggest thing isn't the drinking (though it is a convenient excuse to leave), it's the feeling of sameness. I feel that Kyoto has gotten to be repetitive and stale. I love Kyoto, but I need a change of scenery. I've always been like this really. I've had a wanderlust ever since I was a kid. I love to travel and go new places. I guess the time has just come to leave.